In my darkest hours, I wish I had been able to go outside with my father and be with my parents as they died. Only being able to see them for a few minutes on the video screen before Quantrell turned it off to me forever has haunted me. I would have loved to have been able to hug them one last time and tell them I loved them before they died. But if I had gone out, the facility would have been locked against me. My parents wanted me to stay inside and I respected that. But I still wish I could have been there for them in their last hours.